Oblivious! A sudden impact out of nowhere. Confused. Where am I? How did this happen? What happens now? Which way do I turn? Will anyone come to my rescue? Hurt. Aching, shivering, ice cold, piercing, gut wrenching, unimaginable.....painful. New experience. What will the outcome be? Will there still be life or is this the end? Normal existence. STRONG, confident, ENORMOUS faith, diligent worker bee, warm hearted, unimaginably kind, prayer warrior, fearless, leader, caregiver, provider, mother, daughter, sister, friend....ultimately, a lover of all sorts. Current existence. Afraid, unsure, sore, swollen, scarred, lacking, in need, betrayed, unloved, blind, ANGRY, probing, forgotten, handicap, EMPTY!!!
All of these things reference me in so many ways. It's like a story; my story. My story starts with my breaking point; the point of oblivion. Unaware of what was going on around me and no recollection of how I ended up there. Then there's a more in depth look at my life before I lost track of myself but ending at my current state of mind.
I'm lost in a familiar world that doesn't seem to remember me...or even care to for that matter. It's like all that I knew before isn't here anymore. The family and friends I once had are slim to none. My sight seems to be perfectly fine now but maybe I was blind before?! The strength and faith that made me, ME....is not what it use to be! Are my morals and beliefs in vain?! What was "real" then is practically artificial now. My life is in shambles; turned upside down.
Crash, car, hit, bruised, limping, abandoned, heartbroken, lifeless, disoriented, ME.....torn, ACCIDENTALLY!
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